Entries by Scott Sloan

Thursday, May 18. 2006

Letting Go and Other Stuff

This week I have been dog sitting at my brothers. My roommate and I don't watch t.v., so being able to watch t.v. is a mixed blessing. Unfortunately, after watching the news and entertainment news, I usually get bored and turn off the t.v. Also, because I haven't kept up with Lost, Alias and other shows, they tend to be difficult to follow unless you been an abid fan. So I turned the t.v. off and tried to read. Also, with all of the rain, wiping the dogs feet every time they go out has been a real hassel. Jema also woke me up at 1:00 in the morning to go outside.

I have been struggling with letting go. I have been struggling with being still, and allowing the pain to come up. Last night, at my brother's I had a difficult time getting into God's Word. I couldn't shut my mind off. I have been self-loathing due to binging on chips and melted cheese at my brother's after work the past 2 days, and distracted by my friend "K" whom I have always been attracted to. She has recently come back into my life 2 months ago when she visited my church. Sometimes the feelings that I have for her are really intense (I can become completely undone in her presence), and other times she is just another pretty woman that I am interested in. Oh well. "K" has always been a really good friend, and someone that is a kindred spirit of mine. However, we are into two different worlds (myself at CVC and her at the "Big Vineyard").

The ultimate test is do I believe that my Heavenly Father is good, and desires the best for me? Can I trust the Lord with "K" or any other woman that may come into my life at different times and seasons? Can I relate to them through the Cross of Christ as His Holy Boundary?

Mary McClean talks about following Jesus as being "obedient in his presence". She says that to walk with Jesus we need facts, feelings, faith, and feet. Facts engage our intellect and minds about the truth of who Jesus is and his reign and rule in our lives or lack of it; feelings begins to interract our head and heart by engaging our emotions; faith bridges that gap between our emotions and our will; and feet is where we make our daily choices to follow Jesus.

Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him! (Psalm 34:8 ESV)

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Wednesday, May 17. 2006

New Play List

Tonight I am going to spending some quality time with my buddy. Picture is above. It's been raining a lot in Columbus. So it looks like things are drying out.

What I am Reading:

Life of the Beloved - Henri Nouwen

The Cloister Walk

The October Horse - Colleen McCollough

History of the Early Church - Eusebius

What I am Listening to:

Rocketride - Edguy

Legend of the Bone Carver - Pyramaze

Faceless Man - Seven Angels

Flagship - Maiden Voyage

OM2 - Queensryche

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Tuesday, May 16. 2006

Monday's Thoughts - I don't know Anything About Women

I learned something today why I am still single. If a certain woman is interested in you she may seem guarded or reserved when she is around you. I always took this as rejection. Now I know that it may not be. They are looking for men to be safe, and trustworthy. With regular guy friends with absolutely no romantic interest, they may open up more intimately because they already assume that they are safe. Hmmmmm.

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Tuesday, May 9. 2006

Monday's Thoughts

The most important thing that ever happens in prayer is letting ourselves be loved by God "Be Still and know that I am God" (Psalm 46:10). It's like slipping into a tub of hot water and letting God's love wash over us, enfold us. Prayer is like sunbathing. When you spend a lot of time in the sun people notice it. Prayer- or bathing in the Son of God's love (Sun Bathing?)-makes you different. The awareness of being loved brings atouch of lightness and a tint of brightness, ands sometimes, for nor apprent reason, a smile plays at the corner of your mouth. Through prayer you not only know God's love, you realize it; you are in conscious communion with it. (Brennan Manning - The Lion and Lamb: Relentless Tenderness of Jesus)

I love it when Brennan says that prayer is like like slipping into a tub of hot water and letting God's love wash over us, enfold us. How many of us do not allow the Lord to wash over us with his presence.

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Thursday, May 4. 2006

Cloister Walk

"Most of us come to the church by a means the church does not allow...All have access to God, but each of us has a different access. [Our] great chance relies precisely in [our] unlikeness. God's all-inclusiveness manifests itself in the infinite multiplicity of the ways that lead to him, each of which is open to one [person]." (Cloister Walk page 63 quoting Flannery O'Connor)

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